One Year Ago

One year ago today, on April 11th, we lost our baby girl at 10 weeks pregnant.  We later decided to name her April since that is when she went to be with Jesus.  April was our third pregnancy and second pregnancy loss.  2013 wasn't looking to be a very good year for us.

But God had plans to take our sorrow and pain and turn it into a miracle all within the same year.  It's amazing to see how God's blessings always come, even in the midst of the lowest valley.  Even when it seemed like the easiest thing to do was to give up all hope of having another baby.  I thought if I didn't try anymore, I would at least be protected from the pain of another miscarriage.

Look at what I would have missed out on if I would have given up:

Please don't give up hope.  God may have a miracle for your story too.  Give Him the opportunity to bless you.  I know that waiting is hard, but I learned that it was all God was asking me to do.  Wait and trust Him.

"I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope."  Psalm 130:5

A year ago today, I sat on this very same couch mourning the loss of our baby.  Asking God question after question through endless tears.  I remember not being angry, just very very sad.  Tonight, I'm sitting in my spot on the same couch and I'm looking at my miracle baby sleeping peacefully.  I can see so many answered prayers when I look at him.  Hilton will always be a miracle to me and I'm excited to be able to share this story with him someday.

Hilton's birth story details will be in the next post!